After seeing 7x17, something clicked in my mind. While Sam was in the hospital, they gave him every drug known to man to stop these hallucinations. Now Cas has taken his place. No doubt they’ll do the same to him.
….I couldn’t help but think that this is the beginning of The End.
Sure, the circumstances aren’t the same, but there were too many subtle similarities for me to not notice. As I went to bed that night,I thought about 2014!Cas and these three thoughts kept circling my head.
He buries himself in women because he misses the wife he was forced to leave behind.
He drowned himself in drugs because he couldn’t bear listening to Lucifer brag about what he did to the friends he betrayed, no matter how justified.
And with his grace gone, he continued to follow Dean because he was all he had left. That twisted shell of a man Dean had become was the only thing giving him purpose, and because he never could forgive himself for what he had done. No matter how many times they assured him he was forgiven. No one can guilt like an angel can.
….I couldn’t sleep a wink that night.